During the act of creating or doing it can often feel as though we are pulling teeth to clarify our position, it means we have to take a step back and to acknowledge that there is someone else's narrative at play, it could be a piece of coal or a hidden gem for all you know until you peel back the layers.
Most of the time, the question that has been posed more frequently than not, is one of why? Why does this need to happen? What makes it so attractive to bump it up the list of life achievements? Is it worth your while?
As I take in these statements, insights or at best subtle disinterest from a party that has just come into my own sphere of social influence.
I'm left to ruminate and ponder, why am I actually doing this - why does this matter? It's can become quite puzzling and often baffling experiment for the soul.
Certainly, most ideas aren't new ones. At best they are twists on that which already exists. A marriage if you will, that coalesces well into one of the chief hypotheses from 'Steal Like An Artist' that 'nothing is really original... we just haven't found the references yet'.
Yet, this explanation feels as though it is missing the mark. It wasn't until I heard a quote from the venerable frontman of LCD Soundsystem’s
“The best way to complain is to make things.” —James Murphy
That when the gears started to click over. It was as though the heavens had opened up and the cloud cover that had been wistfully occupied my mind started to clear up.
It's been frustration all along.
That's why, I do what I do.